Winding down

It’s around 10:30pm and I’m in bed winding down and resting my back. Today was a very active day. As usual I biked to group, spent 3 hours there and rode back home. Except I didn’t stop at home, I kept on going to the drugstore in Germany.

As it’s 28C out today,and we’re having a heatwave over the next couple of days, I got some ice cream. I biked back (while eating the ice cream like a pro), stopped by the supermarket for groceries and finally went home.

All in all it was a 1 hour ride.

This route is thankfully rather flat but still worth 500 calories. Woop woop!

Earlier tonight I went out to play Pokemon GO! as well. Wifi hotspots are very frequent in my area so I was able to play with almost no interruptions. Caught about 7 Pokemon in 20 minutes time. My leg hurt too much, otherwise I would have walked around a lot more.

A bit worrisome is the blind spot in my vision today. It’s just a small one, but very noticeable all the same time. I worry this might be a symptom of retinopathy and that it makes my anxiety act up horribly. I will see how it is tomorrow and call the doctor for an appointment if necessary. I’m due for an eye checkup in October as it is.

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When we slip

Oh boy. I’ll start out with the good news: my friend sent me his used smartphone so that I can replace my dying one (and also play Pokemon GO!, we’re both first generation players who never stopped playing 🙂 ). He included cards of some of my favorite Pokemon with it! The US won’t allow batteries being sent out through the mail in phones, so he had to send it without. I ordered a new battery which should be here first thing tomorrow.

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The bad news: my blood glucose control has been total and utter shit today. Cravings and random hunger pangs, a bag of chips (or crisps for the non-American folks out there), a bag of Dolly Mix and fast food elevated my values all day above 10. Boo Sanne. Booo!! Right now I’m miraculously low at 6.4 which I don’t understand, except maybe it’s thanks to the extra dose of gliclazide after dinner, and having a both carb rich and greasy dinner. I might spike during sleep again. I have a killer headache and foggy brain right now though. Not sure if it’s from riding the highs all day, or because I’m super tired (maybe from riding the damn highs?).

As I’m a type LADA with a 50/50 treatment plan (oral meds + basal insulin – bolus) a lot of the fancy diabetes tracking apps and sheets are either much too detailed for my regime, or don’t allow me to enter my basal units and meds as they’re too simplistic. I have an app on my phone installed that lets me be a bit more flexible about it, although the features I really want (like pretty PDF and XLS reports for a nive, detailed overview) are locked into a premium version that costs €28 a year or so. Money which I unfortunately don’t have. Boo….

I slipped up today, no use in crying over that. I was weak, I fell, tomorrow I get the fuck back up and eat properly as much as my supplies allow until I get next week’s grocery money on Monday. No dolly mix or chips, I’ll go for a nice bike ride if the weather isn’t going to roast me and I’ll focus on chores. I have peaches for those between meals snacks and a cucumber and I will eat them before they go bad. I have 6g carb crackers that pair well with a slice of Gouda and some salted cucumber slices. I have oatmeal and milk for a nice warm bowl of cinnamon oats. Plenty of options to have filling meals!

I will be meticulous about logging my meals at the very least even if I don’t test my values. I want to preserve my supplies for as much as possible until halfway through October.

Of pain and exhaustion

My herniated disc is at it again. I am walking and sitting, but the pain is constantly present. The nerve to my right leg got pinched badly this time around, leaving it in a constant state of ‘bad leg cramps’ that have begun to feel like fire. My toes feel partially numb and my leg gives out every now and then.

This would be manageable, I think I built up a massive pain tolerance over the past 4 years dealing with this crap, if it wasn’t for the accompanying exhaustion that the pain brings. Everything you do suddenly requires so much more effort. The pain keeps your body in overdrive throughout the day and even the night. Some nights I spend 5 minutes figuring out the best way to get out of bed without too much pain (or god forbid, collapsing on my bedroom floor) just to go pee.

No fun. Add to that the dropping of the outdoors temperatures, my period finally having ended, and my glucose values climbing a little because of it. I was doing so well on my first week of insulin, but as I suspected this was partially due to the heat wave and my period partying together like there was no tomorrow. My day curves this week are up by 2 mmol/L on average compared to last week, which kind of sucks. I exceeded 10 mmol/L twice which disappointed me a bit, but I have to admit that overall, my numbers are still in the green. The peaks might be a bit of a concern, but I’m getting in touch with my doctor on Friday, when she’s back in the office, to discuss a couple of details with her. I’m definitely not in any sort of red zone right now though, which is good!

Injections are still relatively painless. (Maybe that’s because of my high pain tolerance?) I’ve noticed that if the needle hurts me when I lightly poke the skin without piercing it, the whole injection will hurt and burn. If I carefully poke around until I find a spot that doesn’t hurt, the whole injection is as good as painless, save for a very, very, very minor burning sensation sometimes. I’m not sure why this is, but maybe my belly’s stretchmarks play a role in this? Either way, if I do have to end up bolusing, I don’t expect it to be a big deal if I can get another pen. I’m surprised at how easy it all really is when the mystery is gone.

I want to pick up my two currently pending knitting projects, but I can’t sit still long enough to get much done. My summer cardigan is dragging on and summer will be over before I finish it. It makes me want to take out the sleeve and start over in a plain stockinette stitch rather than the diagonal openwork I have right now, so that I can turn it into a winter cardi. But I’ve also come so far, and I’m really close to finishing! I still have to rip out the cabled socks I was working on and start over, which I’ve been aching to do on and off. I just can’t get my head right for it.

So instead of doing things I should be doing, I’m watching the first Pokemon season (Indigo League) and playing my Pokemon XYORAS games. I’d be up and about playing Pokemon Go like nobody’s business if I had a phone that supports it, but my Galaxy S3 can’t handle the game. My friend has a spare phone he’s sending out to me soon, so fingers crossed!

While we’re here, I want to share with your the deliciousness of my dinner the past two days. I threw fancy out the window and went back to good old Dutch basics.

My glucose values were perfectly in range after these, which is fantastic. 🙂